Peanut's ever-growing wishlist.

by jigsawgirl

        

I can't believe we're officially past the half way point already. I have known since 12 weeks that the goal will be to deliver Peanut between 36 and 37 weeks. But WOW that seems so close now and I am SO under prepared. Talk about freak a mommy out! lol

Big sister's surgery went well!

Now Peanut and I are just trying to catch up on our self care. Ish! lol

But, we are very proud of Peanut's big sister. If you're interested there is a much more detailed update on my personal blog for Miss Emma.

I think we need a nap now.  ~.~

Taking care of big sister Emma.

Today Peanut and I will be taking care of big sister Emma before and after she has her tonsils and adenoids removed. We have the "mother load" of ice cream and popsicles for her to choose from along with a lot of pudding and jello.

We are not looking forward to surgery for big sissy to be, but we know it'll help her feel a lot better. I can tell Peanut is excited about her first time nursing, she's been kicking me all morning. That or she can feel mommy's stress. >.< Although I am trying my best to keep it to a dull roar for both my little ones. :)

Speaking of my cuties... here they are!

Thankfully we have help today so were not doing it all on our own. I have to say I wish it was at least one night in the hospital. I think that's the most nerve wracking part is bringing her right home and keeping her comfortable and safe and making recovery as smooth as we possibly can.

Babies and children should come with an attached warning sticker that surgical maintenance may be required. This is my second time seeing a child through surgery. Not that I'd put them back knowing in advance, but.. knowing in advance may have it's benefits? Then again... if I didn't know this was today... I just might not be so very darn nervous.

17p... so far. Pt. 2

The nurse today was brutal. Last weeks shot, nothing, didn't hurt at all. Today's nurse... OUCH! I wanted to kick her so hard! I came home and iced the spot for a good 30 minutes and took Tylenol. It STILL hurts.

It would be nice if you could pick the nurse who gives you the shot. I'd keep going with the one I had last week. Oh well, it's good for the little one.

18 weeks

I can't believe how far we've come. It feels like the days and weeks crawl by, but here were are... 18 weeks. Such a miracle, I wasn't supposed to be able to even conceive, let alone thinking anything beyond that. I know I've said it before, but I'm saying it again, I feel blessed.

I can't believe how big I am!

I wish I had been taking measurements of my "waist" although as quickly as I popped out, I wouldn't have had a good baseline measurement anyhow. I love this little Peanut and I cannot wait to meet her, even her siblings are very excited. Every time grandma sees me she points out that I'm pregnant because I am so big already. It's crazy! 

I catch myself thinking ahead. Imagining this little ones first birthday and knowing that this will be the first grand baby not to have the traditional "first birthday cake" by great grandma. It's bittersweet, but I am hoping my mom will pick up the tradition and do the same for this little one and eventually her own great grand babies. I never thought I'd have a grand baby that Grams wouldn't see, I miss her and love her tons.

Okay, on that note, only 2 weeks until our level II ultrasound at which I hope to get a ton more pics and to hear only good news!

I really would like

to learn to play this for the baby.

17p... so far.

I feel like I went back to the beginning of the pregnancy. I am horribly tired, very moody, mostly irritable.. and just feel BLAH.

I am sincerely hoping that these side effects go away soon. I hate feeling like this. Don't get me wrong, despite the side effects I plan to continue with the injections to make sure I keep this little one in as long as I can. Pregnancy is just the beginning and if it means that I suffer a bit to ensure her health, I say it's well worth it.

Hopefully those around me that have to deal with me and my side effects agree. :( I will say I am sorry in advance. I don't mean to be jumpy, crabby and sensitive. I promise I am trying to reign in the emotions and hormones. <3

As for Ava... grow baby grow. Mommy loves you so much!

The first of many...

Today I began the wonderful adventure of the 17p injection. I go to the clinic once weekly 8:30am, for the next... 19 weeks I believe... maybe 18 or 20. I'll find out at my next OB appointment *or* my Peri appointment. Or both.

So, 28 finger pokes a week, assuming I get a good poke the first time. 7 insulin injections a week. 1 17p injection a week. That's 36 needles going into my skin a week. Yikes. But there is no doubt that I will do what is needed to help grow this little miss as happy and healthy as I possibly can. I love her so much already.

So, that's my update for today. Oh and the goal of the 17p shots if I haven't said so before, is to keep me from going into preterm labor. I was lucky to make it to 35 weeks with Emma and while I know they wont let me go past 38 weeks with this pregnancy, I still want to keep this little one safe and warm until she's ready.