There is an up side...

At least I can wear my own clothes now that I am off of all the IV stuff.

29 weeks and 5 days

Which means I've been back in Abbott for 5 days. I think it would be easier if they didn't wake you up at 4 am to give you meds... Hello? I'm all big and pregnant and it's already hard to sleep, please don't wake me up at 4 am as well. Bleh! So, despite being sleepy, I am awake now and can't get back to sleep as of yet.

Ohhh though! Mom bought a ton of cute little preemie and newborn outfits for this little pumpkin, which I cannot wait to put her in! She and Miss Emma came for a visit last night with a whole bag of goodies to show me. (Not to mention the surprise visit) It was wonderful!

Oi, how am I ever going to get ready for her stuck here? No nesting, no shopping, notta! I guess I am lucky that the bassinet is already purchased, put together and ready for her. SO much left to buy and do. :(

Okay while I am going to make Stephen drag my happy buns downstairs for a walk, the doors open at 5 am and as long as I am in a wheelchair I am okay to go out and about a little bit each day. That helps the boredom and depression of being stuck in the hospital a bit. In my current situation there isn't anywhere I'd rather be, at least not as far as Bella's safety goes. It's not just me though, all the mom's on this unit look equally depressed.

Maybe I'll drag my camera with and y'all can see what I see. :D I'm sure that will be boring, but it's probably much less so that just sitting here! :P

29 weeks 4 days Bump Pic

Also 4 long days in the hospital. Their goal (I'm told today) is to get me to 34 weeks. 5 weeks in the hospital on bedrest... So hard not to get completely depressed, which I am already fighting, I can't wait for the good outcome though don't get me wrong. ::sigh::

4 days!

4 days post water break and I am still pregnant! I also got a decent night of sleep, so my spirits are up. (Sorry about last night's whine fest)

I met Dr. Nye this morning who is "SO excited to see me STILL pregnant!" lol she cracked me up. She was seriously great, I'm surprised this is the first time I get to meet her. Also I was able to go all night without too much leaking, hopefully Bella will be happily surrounded by fluid once again.

I still cannot fathom being here for weeks, but I think it's okay to just take it a day at a time for now. That's about all I can handle. Bedrest sucks hospital bedrest sucks more. Also, trying to feed my helper is hard... do I go without some of my meal or how do I feed him?

One final word... bored! lol

I'll update more later. :)

Still hanging in there.

We had a small incident with leaking and contractions, enough to make the Peri check my cervix, but things have since calmed back down. I seem to be holding on at the same dilation and effacement, which is good.

Anxiety is high, depression is looming, but I am reminding myself it's only 5 more weeks and she is going to be that much better for it. Assuming labor and infection stay gone that long of course. I miss bedrest at home. I miss my kids. I miss my plants too, my poor plants lol, I can't water them from here.:(

I think I am having a poor me moment. Yes, I can admit I am weak. It's hard to be strong all of the time.

Today's bump pic...

I decided to do these daily now, because I am not sure how much longer I am going to be carrying her.

It's blurry, lighting sucks, but you get it. lol

Just some pics

Here are a few random photos from my "suite" on the antenatal floor.

Stephen brought me the TV and Xbox to make it a bit more like home.

Hospital beds... bleh. But, touches of home again. They help some.

Guest accommodation, Steve's a messy sleeper.

That's all I have for now, but I am bored out of my mind and homesick, I am sure I'll have more. Whether or not you care to see them is another story, but this is where I will bring my Isabella into the world. Not the room, but the hospital. I believe the saying is that each day I carry her closer to her due date, means two less in NICU. Granted, that is for normal babies, but I'd like to think it applies to this little sweety at least a little. <3

I want to sleep so badly. :(

I just can't seem do it. Well, I can, but not for longer than an hour at a time, 3 max if I really roll over and try to stay asleep. It's wearing on me badly. They of course offer me meds to help me sleep, but it all leaves me feeling drugged and hung over the next day, which I can't stand.

I thought for sure getting the IVs out, no more steroids, no more mag and I'd be sleeping like a baby. Apparently not so. I don't seem to be uncomfortable in any specific way, aside from maybe wishing I had a humidifier, my nose is NOT loving the dry hospital air.

I took a nice hot shower last night as soon as my IVs came off, granted I had to glove the one arm with the saline lock in it, but that isn't a big deal either way and I didn't have to sleep with it gloved. I don't think insulin would mess with my sleep, thats a naturally occurring chemical, so I just don't know.

The nurse was just in and suggests I get on a schedule. O.o yes, I'll get right on that, wasn't that you waking me up at 3am to force antibiotic pills down my throat? lol But I digress...

So, really there isn't much update wise, the mag is stopped, my body is "functional" again, for those who have been on Magnesium Sulfate, you know what I mean, for others, it's probably a bit TMI. lol Maybe having no idea when I might go into labor is making it hard to relax as well.

I am willing to take *any* hints or tips from y'all who might know how to get through. I didn't have this issue when I had PTL at 22 weeks. Okay, this post is feeling like whining, I'm sorry!

We'll see what the doc on rounds says this morning I have 3 questions written down all ready to ask. Hopefully I will have some answers next time I post.

I did get one answer this morning, I am here for the duration, no matter how long that is. Yes, this makes me a sad panda, but I'll do whatever I have to do for my baby girl. It *does* sound like I will not be going beyond 34 weeks with the fact that my water is broken. That means that it shouldn't be more than 5 weeks. No wonder I can't sleep.

One of the architectural designs at night.