32 weeks, I can make it...

I think, I hope, I pray. Right now it seems VERY far off, however, considering yesterday the peri thinks I will be lucky to make it that far. I am starting to agree and hoping the steroids and the mag have done what they need to and can do. I also hope that since my body has such a big lead in time (my water broke 10 days ago) that it has done what it can to get Bella ready for birth.

My blood sugars are all over the place now, without the steroids influence, so I am monitoring blood sugars even more carefully and using insulin on an almost regular basis. I haven't seen the Endo yet today, but I am guessing he's going to put me on something for my fasting numbers in addition to the 4 units he has me taking with supper.

There isn't much else going on. I am still dealing with some of the side effects from the mag. I *hate* that stuff and it sounds like anytime I go into labor I get a big mag push again, even if it's close like yesterday's was. (They really need to further the research on how far out the mag works for preventing cerebral palsy and brain bleeds because that stuff is horrible.)

Anyhow... 10 days down... 11 to go. I am almost half way to my goal I am nowhere near the goal the peri has for me though lol. One day at a time!

30 weeks!

We've made it to the official 30 week mark and today also marks 1 full week since my water broke! According to the statistics I was given, each additional day Bella is kept in my tummy is 3 days less that she would have to spend in the NICU. So... 7 days pregnant beyond water breaking, times 3 days per day... that's 21 days less that Bella would have to spend in the NICU now, versus had she been born last week. 

Heck, we've made it 8 weeks past the start of preterm labor which had started at 22 weeks! While I know that ultimately I have little to no control whether she is born early or not, I feel good that I am doing the right things to try to ensure this little one the best start I can give her.

If I ever hear anyone say this stuff is easy... I think I'm going to have to be restrained though lol! I have to say that what I've been through with this pregnancy, by FAR trumps anything I've dealt with in previous pregnancies. And time in bed and in the hospital... omg... 8 weeks, with the possibility of not 4... but 6 more weeks here. I found out just yesterday that if I don't deliver before 36 weeks, they wont induce me until then, rather than the typical 34 weeks that they'd induce at with a typical baby and broken water situation.

One day at a time, each day bringing us a healthier Bella baby.

4 days!

4 days post water break and I am still pregnant! I also got a decent night of sleep, so my spirits are up. (Sorry about last night's whine fest)

I met Dr. Nye this morning who is "SO excited to see me STILL pregnant!" lol she cracked me up. She was seriously great, I'm surprised this is the first time I get to meet her. Also I was able to go all night without too much leaking, hopefully Bella will be happily surrounded by fluid once again.

I still cannot fathom being here for weeks, but I think it's okay to just take it a day at a time for now. That's about all I can handle. Bedrest sucks hospital bedrest sucks more. Also, trying to feed my helper is hard... do I go without some of my meal or how do I feed him?

One final word... bored! lol

I'll update more later. :)

Still hanging in there.

We had a small incident with leaking and contractions, enough to make the Peri check my cervix, but things have since calmed back down. I seem to be holding on at the same dilation and effacement, which is good.

Anxiety is high, depression is looming, but I am reminding myself it's only 5 more weeks and she is going to be that much better for it. Assuming labor and infection stay gone that long of course. I miss bedrest at home. I miss my kids. I miss my plants too, my poor plants lol, I can't water them from here.:(

I think I am having a poor me moment. Yes, I can admit I am weak. It's hard to be strong all of the time.

New U/S pics!

In lieu of a big post as I am still not supposed to sit up that long I took some photos with my phone (sorry no scanner here) and cropped up some new U/S pics from yesterday's U/S. The epic post will wait and see how I do on the lower doses of the medications and such.

She waved and showed us her whole hand. This is my favorite pic.

 

 

 

Her profile is so precious. I love her so much.

So, there is a ton o updating to do and I'm sorry it's taking me so long to get it all posted, but for now, Bella is my biggest concern. I sincerely doubt I am going to forget any details, even if I wanted to. So an full recount of events will be posted and maybe help people have a better understanding. <3

First steroid shot done!

Bella baby's lungs are that much closer to being functional at birth. We have another steroid injection in about 19 hours. Between now and then we have a barrage of appointments that will let us know a LOT more of the "full picture" than we do now. The neonatal specialist as well as the peds cardiac doc are HUGE pieces of the puzzle. Between those two and the peri we can start piecing together this puzzle that I hope results in a healthy and happy Bella baby.

I am also hoping to get moved down to the antepartum floor today with the rest of the bedresting moms to be. It was one thing hoping to make it days, and I am still hoping to make it weeks, but I know the docs are hoping for months and I just can't think that far ahead right now. It's too overwhelming. I am away from everything I have, my kids, everything.and oh my gosh I miss my bed too! And being able to eat when I want and what I want (within my GD restrictions.) as it is I am sitting here counting down the time until I can even place my breakfast order. 1.5 hours and then another 45 minutes beyond that for it to get here. UHG!

I can do this, I can do this. I know I can, I'm strong! (Man I wish I could take small walks)